January 1, 2019

Happy 2019!!

Everyone feels a certain kind of way about resolutions. I personally, like to make goals and lists. I love them actually. Its like a challenge I must conquer. I know last year I didn’t set any. I didn’t want to. I didn’t want to train, diet or anything that I really enjoyed doing. I couldn’t get into the right mentality for anything. I know I had took a bunch of hits so, I allowed myself to take 2018 off and try to wrap my head around my new normal. It’s a hard thing for me. I was used to being able to do almost everything and now I struggle to do anything. So that was what I used 2018 to do. I gave myself time to mentally heal.

This year I have such a good outlook on everything. I can’t wait for everything I plan on doing. I’m not even going to give spoilers.

So I started my day off right. I got on my spin bike then right into my home gym for my squats. I went to the gym down the street for a great shoulder workout. I didn’t even break my fast till after 1pm when I was heading up to spend the afternoon with family.

I can’t even express how much I missed the gym. The gym is more than just the physical benefits, its a great outlet for me. For example, if I had a bad day, a good lift would make me feel better. Don’t get me wrong I miss being in shape too but that will come back.

I kept trying to train last year but I was just going through the motions. It wasn’t enjoyable and I found it stressing me out. I tried everything, changing gyms, going back to stronglift training, only training at home. Nothing was working to remove this dark cloud so to speak. However, today it has been lifted.

The best part of a new year, it’s the perfect time for a new start. Yes I’m gonna say it. New year, new me!!

I hope you are enjoying the daily posts. I will try to keep consistent with them as much as I can. I will also be doing my cancer journey as well. Those will be in parts. It’s very emotional going back to the beginning but I feel it’s going to be very healing for me.